Now I understand I am not a clever person just a regular jerk
Clever, intelligent like words are having a relative meaning. If I say I'm clever, then their exist another person who's clever than me. If that person says he is clever, then there exist another person who's even cleverer than him and so on. According my knowledge in Buddhism, wisdom (or pure intelligence) can only be achieved by becoming a Fully Self Enlightened Buddha (Samma Sambudu). So don't worry about those words. Just be as you are and always remember that you are another beautiful & marvellous living being in this universe.
Give 100% concentration to the subject when you are studying. There is nothing you can't understand when you do that. All these things are invented/discovered by humans just like us. So there is no reason for us not to understand. If you can't understand anything, ask from your teacher and get it cleared.
Since there are lots of people who can help you in ROBOT.LK, I'm wondering why you are not thinking to continue. I'm not pushing you to change the decision. But just think and discuss a lot with people like Enigma, Herath, etc... I'm sure they will never leave you. ROBOT.LK will do everything possible.
Others, participate actively here. Nipuna needs some advises from you guys. Enigma, do you know any problem which Nipuna has to face if he fails the exam? Unlike A/Ls, I guess this is no problem right, he can sit unlimited times until he pass?
Small Buddhist Story
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Last weekend, I participated to a Dhamma discussion in our village temple (where my dad plays a leading role in the dayaka committee). It was about Pragna.
Pragna is the forth of the ten paramitas (perfections) in the Buddhist concept in following the Bodhisattva path. It is referred as “wisdom” or “understanding”, that is able to extinguish afflictions and bring enlightenment. Simply stated, it is the field of pure consciousness beyond concepts, beliefs and imaginations.
After the discussion, people were asked to discuss their matters and all of a sudden a very senior committee member called me by my name and asked
What is your idea about Pragna?. Though I don't like to discuss Buddhism in public since I'm not meditating to achieve nibbhana at the moment. If I discuss, it will be like a person who carries a boat (dhamma) in head which was built to cross the river (samsara). However since I was asked, I had to give an answer.
You can learn lot of things and increase your knowledge in many fields. Some name themselves as so educated, so intelligent, so knowledgeable, so and so. But can anyone of them remember any of these names they had in their past life? NO. It is because all these words we use to name things, people, etc.. are just names. There is no permanent being (I or myself) to carry (Anatma).
Pragna is similarly variable in us. However we can practice dhamma and improve our level of Prajna as taught by our Lord Buddha, 'The Teacher of The Three Worlds' (Humans, Gods and Brahmas). It is something that you need to improve through meditation. You have to practice the Noble Eightfold Path with the knowledge of Four Noble Truths..........
I guess you can now understand the point I have explained all these things. There is nothing called clever or intelligent. Just relative names we use to specifically mention someone (who is really not exists becuase there is nothing called I or me). All these things are just words we use to name things. Just like you name a tree as a mango tree.
Lord Buddha's advise to us is this.
Don't live in the past which had already been passed, you can't take anything back.
Don't live in your dreams on future because it is yet to come, we can't say even we will live.
Live in present meaningfully. Don't waste time because life is uncertain. Get the maximum use of present moment.
Its fundamental beliefs are that ‘life is impermanent or uncertain, life is suffering from ignorance, and life is without a permanent entity or self’. Life is uncertain, but one thing the Buddha taught the world ‘Life is in your hands, you can rule your life. Don’t give your life into other people’s hands’ and he added, “Human beings have an ability to develop their lives, to overcome their own problem or suffering”. Should we believe in someone whom we do not know, or should we believe in the great teacher? This question we have to consider and answer.
So it is clear that we have to decide now. We have to take the challenge to live in present meaningfully. When we practices this, we will realise how meaningful to live every moment in life with mindfulness. This is called
Yoniso Manasikaraya (In Sathara Sathipattanaya) which will lead us to achieve enlightenment (Nibbhana).
I really need to do that. Since it Gains My Courage and my Strength. And Also Remove my Laziness. I went to MA class Last Sunday And did Exercises and Now My Laziness is Gone by Doing Exercises. I really need that if not i will become Lazy gain by Siting all the day. 
. Not UoC
. That could be fun!
